Lost

By Veronica Novy

I am lost on a highway with no exit signs.

I missed yesterday and didn't even realize it until today!

I took one day off and nearly lost a piece of me.

I asked a friend what day is it?

His response was Wednesday.

I remember bits and pieces of the day.

Mostly I remember not remembering if that makes sense.

Only to me probably.

What has chemo done to me?

What has radiation done to me?

I went through the process and now it's my excuse for having a blurred mind.

Can anybody out there hear me?

As day turned to night, I felt the sun leave my body.

The warmth and glow of a hot sunny day was slowly embracing someone else halfway across the world.

When its day here, it's night somewhere else.

The warmth of the sun left me, and the cool of the night began to embrace my soul.

My body began to shiver as I tried to remember every minute of the last five months.

It's an odd feeling to sit in your room and hear the water drip.

It's an odd feeling when you try not to think of how cancer grows. The rest of my life is dedicated to forgetting about those cells that invaded my body.

Life before and life after can only parallel each other in different time zones and dimensions.

What can any of us do but survive.

Another day in the life of a survivor.

Not many will understand.

All it takes is one person to listen!